Maybe Some Day

Tears, falling slowly.

Heart, aching freely.

Not even sure what makes me cry.

I believe it’s a combination of things,

Things that are out of my control;

Things that worry me.

Things that make me hurt, and fear, and retreat

Into the depths of darkness

That is depression.

But the darkness is not only from my circumstances.

I feel the darkness just because.

It’s difficult to explain, but there are many times

That I feel discouraged

For absolutely no reason.

And it’s hard for people to understand–

Even the people who love me the most.

But they try, and that’s what matters.

And I have God–and He ALWAYS understands.

I’m so grateful that He is there for me,

Always present, always available,

Always concerned–more than concerned.

He is so concerned that He gave up His life for me…

And now He lives to give me life abundant.

Something that I am always yearning for,

But never quite attaining.

Maybe some day…


This was written a few days ago, but I was too embarrassed to post it. Still am somewhat embarrassed.

I’m feeling a little bit better, but not much. I’m taking steps to get the extra help that I need. It’s just a very difficult process.

But I wanted to share this poem, because I feel that being transparent is important…and because maybe there is someone out there feeling the same way who can be encouraged by the fact that they are not alone. ❤


Photo Credit: Chris Sardegna

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2 thoughts on “Maybe Some Day

  1. So sorry that you’re having such a difficult time. In my 20’s I went through a bad depression that lasted about 2 months. It was a terrible, dark time. I can’t imagine how you live with that all the time and for years at a time! You’re right, the only way is with support from loved ones, good medical care, and especially God’s grace. Thank you for sharing and continue to do so. We often don’t know that others need our prayers and support unless we’re told. There is no shame in expressing need for both!

    Love,

    Aunt Judy

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